Because I Had Children

Back at the end of March, I had a feeling of nervousness that was causing me to be short of breath and to worry about the slightest things. I was getting ready to fly to Utah to see my older kids and I almost decided not to go because I thought maybe it was a whisper of the spirit not to travel but it felt different than other promptings so I chose to go. It was a great weekend visiting but the shortness of breath turned into chest heaviness then a few days after I got home, it turned into chest pain. I never felt like it was urgent enough to go to the hospital and I tried to make an appointment with my Dr. but he was only available 3 weeks from then so after a few days I chose to go to the urgent care. Although I have family members who have suffered with anxiety and depression I never thought it would be me. Does this look like the face of anxiety or depression? I can't even count the number of times I faked it until I could get home and crawl into bed.  At the urgent care...

My friend Stephanie at  www.stephaniesaysso.blogspot.com  is my favorite poet:) She describes a new poem each day during the month of April so we can all celebrate National Poetry Month together. Being a mother, a teacher and a coach leaves me very little time to write so I look forward to this month when I can whip out a poem or two in a few minutes in my "free time." Here are a few I've written in the last month. Pensee Food Poem Sushi Kinda Slimy Chopsticks make it authentic comfort food to end my long day. Easy dinner, not cheap. Grammar Poem Students Intent and hard working, typing on their keyboards feverishly like their lives depended on it. If only they really understood that it does. Synonym Poem TIRED Fatigued, empty, faint, drained, spent I wonder when I will again begin feeling content? Credo Poem I believe in the importance of working hard, the courage it takes to pick yourself up, the skill it takes to move forward, the honesty i...

I can't believe how long it has been since I last posted. I wish I had more free time to write. I think of things all the time that I want to get out and yet I am swamped with life. What has happened in the last four years you ask? Let me sum it up: Drew left on his mission to Alaska-October of 2015. My dad passed away-January 2016. Skylar went on a trip to Spain with a group from school-March 2016. Ben and I went to New York for our 25th anniversary-May 2016. I took a sisters/daughters trip with my mom, Allison, Brittany and Marly to North Dakota to see Candice's oldest got baptized-June 2016. Anny was baptized-July 2016. I had hernia surgery, eyelid surgery and ablation done-July 2016. Katy got her driver's license-January 2017. Vance got engaged to Katelynn Wilson-February 2017. Sky had ankle surgery-April 2017. Marly graduated from Utah Valley University and Institute-May 2017. Marly gets engaged to Hayden Thieme-May 2017. Ben retires from 20 years at Hone...