Sometimes I get so frustrated with my parenting that I wish I could have a do-over. Lately I feel that way a lot. I think is is part of my senior-itis kicking with my graduation only 8 weeks and 4 days away (but who is counting?). I feel a little consumed by my two classes but at the same time I have this "who cares" type of attitude. There is nothing stable about my parenting (or my emotional status) lately. I'm all up in their grills one day and my house is spotless and homework turned in on time and then the next week my house is trashed, my homework is late or not done at all and the worst part is I don't even notice.
It doesn't help that I have tons of external things to blame it on...Jenny's funeral, the pneumonia, the weather, potty training issues (the three year old, not me), etc. But, the reality is, I am not very consistent. There you have it people, I have a weakness, it is consistency. I can do really great one day/week/month and then the next, I have fallen off the wagon. After a few weeks like I've had, I just want to go back to the beginning and beg for a do-over. But, we all know that isn't reality. The reality is that I can blame nobody but myself.
So here I sit, at 11:30 on Sunday night, waiting and praying for morning to come so I can have my own kind of a do-over. The kind where I say to myself that today is a new day and I'm getting back on track with homework schedules (for everyone, not just me), chore charts, meal planning...everything. Yes sirree, that is my kind of a do-over since I'm not getting the one I really wanted. Look out Monday, I'm all over you like stink on a poopy diaper. I'm even going visiting teaching and it isn't even the end of the month yet:)